looking out towards the horizon where the sea meets the sky wandering aimlessly along this empty forgotten beach wet sand crunching beneath my feet as the tide rolls in on this frosty, chill morning cold wind against my face how do i know this is a beach? and the question seems silly even as i think it this is obviously a beach wet sand crashing waves seagulls overhead this is obviously a beach could i take a handful of sand away with me when i leave and leave the beach, this obvious beach, unmolested? well, of course i can this must be my morning for silly questions so, is this pile of sand in my fist no longer a beach? no, of course not (I resist the temptation to roll my eyes at myself) it is a pile of sand, then? well, of course it is (i'm trying my own patience here) and if i pluck away one grain of sand in one hand i have a pile of sand in one hand i have a grain of sand so, a pile of sand is somewhere between this one grain and this pile in my fist? yes, of course and how many grains of sand make up a pile of sand? somewhere between one and a lot, obviously but how much? how many? at what number do grains of sand become a pile? become a beach? i look at myself, incredulously (as if seeing myself for the very first time) and cannot suppress the feeling that deep down inside somewhere dark and musty somewhere that never sees the light of day i am, in fact, an idiot.