Hey, you know how when you first open your eyes and the room is still pitch black and the only sounds are traffic outside and maybe a too-loud TV somewhere and it takes a moment or three to get your bearings and the day is filled with possibilities and the moment you've been waiting for is just hours away and you're filled with both excitement and dread? Hey, you know how when you look back at something in your past that seemed at the time to be innocuous at best and it is only through the lens of time and experience that you come to realize that it was actually a turning point, a clearly defined before and after that you can only now see in your rearview mirror? Hey, you know how when the brain fog starts to lift and you take the first sip from your second cup of coffee and your morning headache starts to fade and the room starts to come into focus and you realize that maybe, just maybe, this might turn out to be one of those days, a turning point that will clearly demarcate "then" from "now"? Hey, you know how when you're sitting on the edge of your bed and you think to yourself, what have I gotten myself into this time? and you are simultaneously excited at the prospect of what is to come and dreading having to start the whole process over again, wondering if it is worth all of the effort it is going to take to just be yourself, open to both acceptance and rejection? Hey, you know how when you push all of that aside because you have things to do and people to see and hearts to break and all of that other faux-confidence stuff that you tell yourself to help you make it from one day to the next, and so you turn the water on and wait for it to get hot enough to get in the shower and you stand there staring at the wall with the hot water running down your back as you push back against all of your self-doubt? Yeah, that.